Tony's big picture

I've never really over-analyzed my future in the way other people do. I mean, I have a tendency to worry about things, but I never actually stop and picture my life 10+ years from now. At least until I met an extremely peculiar man last week. We sat at work watching a football game, talking about our lives. He then said something along the lines of "I wish you success in whatever you plan to do for the rest of your life, what is that exactly?" And there I sat, debating whether or not to peddle off another one of my generic answers like I usually do, and for once I didn't. The truth is, I don't have the slightest clue where I'll be in 10 years. I know where I want to be in the end, it's where I've always planned to be. But here I am spending tens of thousands of dollars per year for an education that leaves me with a missing 20 years of my "future plan". I spent days wondering how the hell I have no idea what I want to fill all those years with? Family? maybe, but I've always been undecided on that. Management? for a while, but I never want to be stuck in that position for a long period of time. And then I realized, when I was younger, I never expected to be in the place I am now. Kids dream of going to their first college party or football game and gawk at the thought of their first all-nighter. Pittsburgh, New York City, Florida, and especially a little town in Virginia; places where all of my biggest accomplishments occurred, I never gave any thought to up until months before their occurance. So maybe I'll be able to add Italy and Vegas to that list soon too and then let my next lapse of sound judgement take me wherever it pleases like I always do. It seems to have worked in the past. If not, I'll have my back up plan waiting for me in 20 years.

See you in California Tony.